Since childhood I am very proud having my name. A long name which sounds unordinary is very cool I think. Thus I do not know why when I grew up become an adolescent, I realize that my nickname sounds more pleasant than my full name. Although my nickname is very ordinary, short, and not cool at all I still tend to introduce myself using my nickname. That is because when someone calls me by my full name, I feel not really close with him/her. Thus, when he/she call me using my nickname, I feel he/she has been closer with me. I think I feel like that because in the past when my mother was angry she often called me by my full name. Can you imagine how terrify my mom when she was angry and called me by my full name? hehe.
My full name is from Arabic language. My parents created my name using some words from Al Quran. For example, you can find my first name in Al Quran Surat Al A’raf : 26. My first name means dress or jewelry from heaven which is used by angles or elf. My middle name means chastity. Then, my last name means brilliant or clear. My friends joked like this, “your full name means a dress which is net and clear. So, you are like a detergent, haha”. Whatever they said cannot make me upset having this name. My mother said that my first name in Al Qur’an means not a real dress. The word dress is a metaphore for piety (taqwa) which is like protector of our religious. As we know, piety is like a fearful feeling to Allah until we keep ourselves not doing any disgraceful thing. In other words, it can protect ourselves from temptations of Satan. With this piety, my parents hope that I will have a pure soul and become a brilliant person.
That is a really good pray for me, but it is so hard to be realized. No body have no sin I think. It is so hard to keep myself not doing disgraceful thing at all. Sometimes, I pull a long face (feel frustated) because I have many sin and cannot attain my parents’ pray. Until I read my little brother book, he wrote “it is a normal thing when we make a mistake, but we should not make a same mistake”. I really like this words. This words made me realize that I cannot have no sin, but I can try to increase my kindness and always pray to Allah about everything I did, I do and I will do.
